At 1am Jordan time 3 bombs went off almost simultaneously at 3 hotels in Amman, Jordan killing 56 people and 100+ injured. I am so sad to hear this because I was just there a couple months ago and Jordan is the safest country in the Middle East.
May God bless the people in Jordan and those poor families who lost loved ones.
What really pisses me off is that there was a wedding going on.....the comming together of two people, and their families, and some selfish fuckin person had to walk in the middle of THEIR happiness and blow himself up killing 19-25 people just at this wedding. I hope those suicide bombers rot in Hell!!!!!
I wouldn't trade anything in the world for what I have with Shawn. Yes, things have been difficult lately, with bad timing, and horrible stresses on both our parts....it's been hard for us to take any time to just focus on each other. Lastnight was amazing, and it wasn't anything we did or didn't do.....it's just him! Being in the same room with him, sitting beside him, looking into his eyes. I've never loved anyone this much before. I honestly cannot picture my life without him. Through all of our childish arguments, and disagreements......something beautiful always emerges from it, and this my friends is what True Love is.....when you can go through every possible downfall with that person ,and still be able to rise above it all because you always remember one thing.........The enormous, and incomparable love you have for each other.
Shawn, I'm sick of the bickering, and the stupid arguments we always have......I Love You and I DONT want to be without you, your the only one who completes me in all aspects. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
Never in my life have I EVER been under so much fuckin' stress! The second I got home from my trip.....my life just flipped all around, in all directions. I don't think I was meant to come back. My mind feels like it's going to explode soon! I can't talk to anyone because I just cant bring people down with me anymore.....I don't answer my phone calls, I don't call people anymore, and my depression is comming back. My whole life has done a 360 degree turn, in a matter of a months period, and nothing positive has come out of it. I have no idea what to do anymore!!!! All I have left now is my family........and all of them are a thousand miles away from me!!!! =0( except the immediate family. ( Duh!!! )
So....my vacation so far has been absolutely awsome! I love being in Jordan, and the way the people are here. I just got back from Aqaba...it's at the southern end of Jordan and the red sea is located there. So we stayed in this awsome hotel right by the sea with a pool thats surroun the whole back sid eof the hotel, and from the pool you can walk right down the bridge to the sea. It was AMAZING! The sad thing was even though it was great being with my family....I would have loved being there with Shawn. I told him when we are married that's where we are going for our honeymoon....none of this fiji and hawaii crap. I miss him terribly and all I want is to be with him. I Love You baby so much! Your my everything! Well thats all for now.....I leave on thursday for paris and it turns out we are gonna be leaving earlier than planned (good and bad).
Well everyone, I just wanted to say that I'm here in Jordan having an amazing time with my family, but I hve never missed home so much in my life!! This has been an amazing trip for me. I've gotten to see the airport in houston, stayed 2 days in Amsterdam, I'm currently in Jordan for 2 weeks, nd afterwards I'll be on my way to Paris for a week. I know that I definately want to travel in the future because it's just an amazing experience. Shawn, I miss you so much and love you with all of my heart!!!! I can't wait to hold you and kiss you!! Well I was just updating all of you on what I've been doing. Hope everyone is good.
Shawn Oliver.....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!
Oh, and just to let you all know how much of a time difference there is. Its currently 11:42 pm =0) Saturday night!
I could be a million miles away from you, and it will always feel like your right next to me. I never thought I'd miss you so much, but I do. I missed you before you even left my arms. I feel we are meant to be, but there are things we both need to work on personally....I just dont think I want to do it without you. Your amazing to me, and you will forever and always take my breath away. I Love You.
I can't wait to leave in 2 weeks for my trip! I am anxious to leave this country for a while cuz personally i am tired of being here. And the people at work are being fuckheads, telling me I cant take a leave of abscence I have to quit.....FUCK YOU! I'm gonna try findig a job that's gonna move me up to management quicker. I'm sick of these putzy-ass jobs...I need a challenege. I'm seeing my friends more and so that's cool. As you all may know from myspace my amazing 2 year relationship has ended but on positive terms, and I still love him and want him to do well in his life. I'll miss him and his family...they are all great people!
So I had my interview today for a supervisor position, and I am really hoping I get it. I've been working my ass off lately, so I'm hoping all of that hard work pays off. In terms of everyhthing else going on in my life, school is going decently, work is good, my boyfriend and I are as close as ever, and I've got a lot of muscle! I'm working on that 6 pack now =0). Take Care guys and gals.
I called in sick from work yesterday. Why? Well because I needed a break away from the valley, work school, etc... So I spent the most wonderful day/night in Redondo Beach, with the world best boyfriend I believe I could ever ask for. I have never felt so complete, and natural with someone. We do everything together from going out to nice dinners, to playing video games. He's my love, and he is also like my best friend, that's something that isn't exactly easy to find in another person. Times have been a little stressful for the both of us lately, but yesterday just reminded me/us just how important this relationship is. I fell more in love with him yesterday, and I don't care how long we are together for, but I am always going to learn something new from him. Shawn Christopher Oliver I Love You so much, and your just an amazing person inside and out, there isn't anything I wouldn't do or you! Thank you for everything that you did yesterday, I enjoyed everything we did, especially that beautiful dinner we had.
I can't believe I'm saying this but, I'm actually excited to go back to school. Maybe it's because I'm 2 semesters away from my degree, and then I can move on to bigger and better things. I told myself I'm gonna kick ass this year and finish things that I need to finish. There are also some things I need to do that will benefit a lot of people, especially my relationship with my boyfriend.......did I mention how wonderful he is? I guess not, well he's amazing and I'm so thankful to be with him this long. I know that he's the one I'm going to marry.......I have to marry him, then my life will be absolutely complete. Well I'm off to, well........somewhere.
I Miss You Shawn so damn much....I can't stand being away from you my love.
It's sad to see how blind some girls are in their relationships......they don't realize the truth till it's too late. Luckily I realized it before the worst part came and Shawn was finally a part of my life. I hope it's permanent.
I gots Friday off of work and I can't wait for it!!!!
I could go for some......ummmm.....uuuuuhhhh.....well I guess it's orange juice time =0)